My time at college was…interesting. I ended my high school career with a bang, well actually a boom, thud, smash. My hometown encountered a F5 tornado in March of my senior year. My family alone had $100,000 in damage to our property. It was a crazy mess. That was the day I lost my innocence.
After leaving for college, I spent many nights in tears. I’m sure my mom would like for me to tell you it was because I missed her (and I’m sure there were times of that) but I was very much grieving for my perfect life!
I was a music major at a university very well known for its excellent music program. I had a hard time expressing myself through music after the tornado. I couldn’t add expression to my music for fear that if I did I would emotionally loose myself. I spent my piano lessons in tears. I remember very few lesson times when I didn’t cry. My professor on MANY occasions asked me if I was sure being a piano major was what I wanted to do. It was. I was determined. And he was not going to stop me!
Looking back now 15 years later, I can usually laugh. I know that each decision I made back then has helped teach me more about myself. I’m thankful for my stubbornness because without it I wouldn’t be able to get my minister license this year. After a 10 year “break” from living, I’m back and ready to get to it!