Who’s In The #1 Spot?

The last 2 weeks have been very interesting for me.  As my work at church has ended, I felt that God has been moving me out from under the covering I had as a staff member at my church.  I’ve found myself lost.  Somehow my identity had fused with my employment status.

I found my covering and security in the wrong thing (yet again!).  I found it in a position instead of in God.  Who is the ultimate provider for my life?  GOD.  Who is the one who leads and guides me each day? GOD.  Where does my strength, hope, and peace come from?  GOD.  No position, human, or church can provide that for me.  God leads me and guides me.  If I get my focus off Him and onto a person or a title, that becomes an idol.  It replaces the position God should have in my life.

God,

Forgive me for placing other people and things in the place only You belong. Be #1 in my life. Lead me, my actions, and my words.  My life is so much more than I could have dreamed up by myself.  Thank you for again showing me that I belong to You and that my worth is found in You.

Your loving daughter,

Jill

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BIG Faith…New Beginnings

Over the last few weeks my life has completely changed.  I went from living by big faith to living out that faith.  

Bryce and I have both been serving at Canvas Church for the last 2-1/2 years.  I was brought on staff 10 months ago to help with the administration needs.  My main goals were to create systems and structure to help the church as we continued to move forward and grow.  I’m happy to say I was able to accomplish those goals.

A few months ago, God started doing something big in the Moltumyr house.  He was training us in the area of faith.  Last fall, it seemed like every door was closing for my husband’s business.  He was working hard to keep it alive.  Even when the business was struggling God was faithful to provide for us in other ways.  One month we sold a bunch of things we owned because that’s what God told us to do.  Another month we were given enough money to keep us going by some people who listened to God and were faithful to obey Him.  I remember thinking how creative God was because the money seemed to be coming in different ways each time.

He was growing our faith.

It was sure a good thing He was growing our faith because we would be facing even more in the weeks to come.  Last week I celebrated my final day of employment with Canvas Church.  For reasons I don’t understand (yet!) God has moved me on from being on staff.  It was a mutual decision between the pastor, his wife, and myself.  They were feeling like my time was coming to an end and so was I.  Sometimes the fact that God is working all these things together at the same time without people even knowing it is amazing to me.  I hadn’t expressed any of my feelings to them, but I had been praying that God would be working in the situation so that they would be ready when it was time.

Here comes the moment of living out my faith.

I told Bryce yesterday how amazing it was that we are open to whatever God has next for us.  We are literally holding to the promises God has given us.  A dear friend was praying for us months ago and felt God showing her a picture for Bryce and I. All the pieces of our lives would come falling down to the bottom where God would then pick them up and shape them into something new. After He was done, she saw them being shot out like a rocket. I know that this season I’m walking through now is going to be harder than the (hard) season we just walked through.  God has told me that.  That thought gives me a lump in my throat because I certainly thought I could not possibly stretch any further.

Our job right now is to pray and keep our eyes open to find what God has for us.  My mind has to remain on the goodness of God, His faithfulness and love, and knowing that there is a promise out there for us.  If I step back into trying to control this, it will not end well.  God’s got me.  I just need to remain faithful to Him.

Walk with Me in holy trust, responding to My initiatives rather than trying to make things fit your plans.  I died to set you free, and that includes freedom from compulsive planning.  When your mind spins with a multitude of thoughts, YOU CANNOT HEAR MY VOICE.  A mind preoccupied with planning pays homage to the idol of CONTROL.  -Jesus Calling April 22

God has told me to live right here, right now and to not be planning for what is ahead.  So we are going to live well right now.  If you think of us, please pray as we are on the lookout for what God has in our future.  We know He is faithful and He has a great plan.

I Need The TRUTH!

I remember watching a Veggie Tales video about Gideon when my kids were younger and thinking how much faith it would take for George Mueller to trust God to provide everything.  I mean, everything!  At that time I was still living under a lot of ick (read condemnation!) and thought I was a lesser Christian because I could never live with that kind of faith!  A few days ago I was thinking of that story again.  Perhaps it was because we were living that kind of faith out on a VERY small scale…and God has been very faithful, but that’s not the reason I write this.

My concern is that we have allowed other people’s expectations and condemnation (real or not real!) to dominate our lives.  What words have people spoken to you or over you (saying you are this way or that) that have SHAPED who you are today.  Have they brought God’s truth into your life or sucked out whatever truth you had in you?  Has what they said changed the way you hear and see yourself?

Who is the ultimate authority in our life?  If we make God the one in charge, I can guarantee you that He does NOT condemn us.  He will correct our behaviors and even guide us to the proper path, but He does it in such a kind and loving way.  He has expectations for you that are not outside your reach, especially when you are listening to Him and letting Him take the lead.

When people start speaking into your life, ask yourself if what they are saying is hurting or helping, but more importantly ask yourself if it is true.  I am constantly asking myself if what I’m thinking or hearing is a lie (and perhaps going to hurt me) or if it’s God’s truth about who and what He is asking of me.  Many times I go back to the Bible and test what I’m hearing.  I also journal, so I’ll go back and see if what I’m hearing lines up with what I’ve come to see in my past.

What are some lies that you’ve believed that need to be stopped?  Once you get rid of that lie, what is the truth in that situation?  It’s not enough to simply get rid of the lie, you must replace it with truth or the lie will try to weasel it’s way back into your life.  Find the truth.

 

What About A Cow?

Have you ever found yourself in a situation where your first reaction was to TOTALLY trust God?  Honestly, the only way I came into our present situation trusting God was because He prepared me with a sweet moment that turned out to be a promise.  In October of 2013, life was going good.  We were killing our Dave Ramsey budget and paying off debts (yay!!!).  So I was totally taken back when I heard God say, “Cattle on a thousand hills, Jill.  Cattle on a thousand hills.”  I knew exactly what He meant.

For all the animals of the forest are mine,
and I own the cattle on a thousand hills.” Psalms 50:10

He owns it all and He alone would be our provider.  We were going to need to trust in Him.

A month later when we were seeing Bryce’s work slow down significantly.  I was reminded of that moment in October…He owned the cattle. For the last 6 months those words have carried me.

So here we are today and I’m struggling to want to PUSH things through and make things happen.  I know it’s totally me wanting to make something happen.  I’m fine with that.  I know my personality.  I’ve chased after every job posting I can find…it’s exhausting!  But you know what I haven’t done recently?  Asked God what job He wanted us to pursue for Bryce.

Today I stopped for a few moments and tried to clear my head.  I tried to create an open space of trust so that I could hear Him.  That, today, is my act of trust because I know there is NO better place to find myself.

This is the reading today from Jesus Calling.  I’m telling you that book slaps me upside the head nearly every day!

B&W

What things do you need to release to God?  What fears are paralyzing you because YOU WEREN’T MEANT TO CARRY THEM?!?!

God, please show us your ways.  Show us the things we need to put down.  We trust you.

What A Week Will Bring

I’ve been thinking a lot about goal setting the last few weeks.  For me a life without goals = no purpose or destination.  I know that kinda sounds dramatic, but it isn’t.  I’ve come to realize I most likely have some sort of attention issue.  At times I wonder who in America doesn’t with all the distractions we have but I know for certain if you look at my track record and past that I have a problem with…squirrel!  Yeah, you’ve got it.

It didn’t take long after that realization (and a few tears) for me to set a plan in place.  I know that if I have a hard time concentrating long term that I must break them down into smaller goals.  I’m determined to use this for some good instead of be mad and hurt which lets this be a deficit.

So…my new habit I’m going to implement (with the help of my trusty partner in life who is extremely disciplined!) is weekly goal setting for myself and our family.

That sounds kinda nuts, right?  Weekly goal setting for your family!?!  Isn’t that a little overboard?

Well, no!  Because we will be able to find more wins in a shorter timeframe because we will have smaller goals.  These smaller goals will lead to bigger wins as we reach our bigger goals.  Come on now…doesn’t that sound amazing!

Goal without a plan

So here are my goals for this week:

Personal Goals: to set my goals (check!), read a nutrition book for the boys (so we can start setting proper food goals for the family), write 2 blogs, spend time daily praying for a specific breakthrough that God has promised, sell more stuff to lighten the load at the house (you know we all have A LOT of stuff!), and complete all the projects I currently have for work.

Family goals: eat dinner together as a family each night, read with the boys for 20 minutes each day, go to Lego Club and get books for the next week, school Mr. L on multiplication goodness, limit screens to 2 hours a day, and do 5 loads laundry.

Crazy simple goals, right?  But I can cross those off and feel like I’m moving the family and myself forward to a healthier and happier destination.

Are weekly goals a good idea for you at home or at work?  What goal or goals could you implement this week to help you reach a bigger goal?